Is there such thing as wanting something too badly?
One thing that's become abundantly clear for me within the last year:
There is such thing as wanting something too badly.
I feel like the age old motivational question is "how bad do you want it?" But no one talks about how if you want it too badly it can actually become detrimental and cause you to be a slave and to your own wishes that may not be aligned with the higher good and ur highest self or Gods/ Universe/ The One's plan.
Anything I've ever wanted TOO badly where it was all I could think about, caused me anxiety & fostered fear within me I literally have NEVER gotten. Like I can't think of one time where l got it. Not a job, not a college acceptance, not a relationship etc...
Currently trying to figure out as a co-creator of my own reality and life, how much power am I supposed to delegate to myself, to fate, or to God to make things happen that I want to happen? Yea you can talk about manifestation and stuff but at what point can u over-manifest and let what you want consume your mental & physical and is that healthy??
Also on a side note I was reading this book a while ago about what happens when different parties bring their Gods to the table. It talked about how the most deadliest of wars and disasters have been fought in the name of their Gods and how when people feel divinely appointed to do things, they can become irrational and do things like create deadly wars and violence.
It brings me back to this idea that some people in their pursuit of the Self will over aestheticize the Universe/God, some will undervalue it, some will overvalue it and some who are not ready will be injured by it. Yet we still all find our way back to this moral obligation, to tap back into this sensuality of oneness with God or the higher being.
So the question is, if this moral obligation and pursuit is inevitable, what does a healthy relationship look like with God/the One/ the Universe & can this relationship or belief when taken too far become actually detrimental to the self and human kind?
I wish I had the answers.
